#SoCS May 7/16 – Apparently Not
for Stream of Consciousness Saturday – Prompt: Apparent/a parent
Apparently everyone assumes I’m a parent, merely by my sex. Just being female equates you with motherhood. And it gets worse the closer one gets to Mother’s Day. They don’t realize the pain I endure when I hear those words, “Happy Mother’s Day.”
The relationship I had with my own mother was not good. In fact, most of the time it was horrible. There was very little happiness about it. And she’s been gone for 9 years, so there is no way to recover that relationship or make improvements on it.
But that’s not the only reason those words are bitter to me. I had the chance twice to be a mother, but it wasn’t meant to be. I lost both babies during my first trimesters and then after the second miscarriage, I was told I would probably never conceive again. Which I never did.
I won’t get rude or nasty if you wish my Happy Mother’s Day. But I may get quiet, very quiet. And if you write it to me. I would probably just relay it back, if you are female. Surprisingly enough, few males ever say those words to me. Maybe somehow they know. It’s not that the day is a bad one. It isn’t for many and neither should it be. It’s just apparently for me it is and so I generally keep my distance on that day so not to taint it for others.