30 Day Blog Challenge — Day One
Day One — Introduction
I never was very good at introductions. It’s like beginning a conversation with a stranger. Do I make small talk, chat about the weather or tell generalized versions of myself? No matter what I say, it will sound contrived. So let’s begin anyway, shall we?
Hi, I am Loretta or Lori. I answer to both. Loretta is my given name after the country singer, Loretta Lynn–my father’s idea. I never really cared for the name because I was teased mercilessly in school because of it. It took me years to realize that when someone called me the coal miner’s daughter, it was because of my namesake. I usually retorted that no, I was the rubber maker’s daughter, since my dad worked in a rubber plant. That generally got me weird stares. Thankfully when I was in college, one of my new friends there decided to call me Lori and the name stuck. I prefer it even though my hometown friends and most of my family still call me Loretta. So if you really want to get on my good side, call me Lori.
I am 48, separated since October 2014, with no children. I never wanted children and I am glad I never had any. I say it was a godsend, or perhaps retribution. One never really knows about those things and I try not to dwell upon it. I just know I am not mommy material. I tend to be selfish with my time and that is no way to be with children. I do have some wonderful nieces and nephews (and a few grands) and although I haven’t spent a great deal of time in their lives, I do love them in my own way. I’ve never spent a great deal of time in anyone’s life but my own, and I am not afraid to admit that.
I am a writer of poetry, short fiction, creative essays, novelettes and the occasional attempt at novel writing. I dabble with art, mostly collages, water colors, acrylics and sketching. I also crochet when the whim hits me. I love reading science fiction, mysteries, thrillers, biographies and poetry. When I was a child, my favorite books were gothic novels written in the 60s and 70s. You could always spot a gothic novel at a glance: a scary castle, a frightened woman and usually a cliff overlooking the ocean were on the cover of every novel. I couldn’t get enough of them. Jane Eyre is probably my all time favorite novel. Ender’s Game comes in at a close second. I enjoy most music with the exception of modern Country and most Rap. Alternative Rock, Heavy Metal and Classical are my faves though. My favorite artists/bands are Neil Diamond, Prince, George Strait, Melissa Etheridge, Indigo Girls, k.d. lang, Simply Red, Linkin Park, Distrubed, Apocalyptica, Slipknot, and Type O Negative. Quite eclectic huh? There are others, of course, but those are my go-to sounds when I need to relax.
I tend to say that all of my life, I’ve walked the middle path. I am the middle child of three kids. I practice Buddhism (after years of searching spiritually) which is called the Middle Path, and politically, I am an Independent, which could be considered the middle path in politics since it is neither left nor right. I am, however, very liberal… one of those bleeding heart liberals. What I don’t do is attempt to force my beliefs on others. I believe we all have the right to chose whatever path or side which rings true with our own moral compasses. So long as no one tries to force their beliefs on me, I am a go-along-to-get-along type of person.
I am an introvert, but not shy. I just prefer my own company to others. I am fine in small groups, but I get panic attacks in large group settings. I would chose an evening at a bookstore or coffee shop over a bar or night club, the opera or theater over a concert (unless it was someone I couldn’t resist seeing), and a walk along the beach or in the mountains to a rowdy cityscape, although I’ve lived in a couple small cities (Roanoke VA and Tulsa OK). I cherish a few close friends but have tons of acquaintances, mostly on social media. I am a difficult person to get to know because I do not share intimacies easily with strangers. I have Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, OCD and a host of phobias. Because of these, I tend to be moody, melancholy and often misunderstood. I’ve also endured a lot of tragedies in my life, so I have trust issues.
Well, as far as introductions go, I guess this one isn’t so bad. I don’t want to reveal too much about myself here because in the upcoming days, there will be more mysteries about myself to share. Tomorrow, I will be sharing 20 Facts About Myself. I hope you will join me for those.